La la la

Monday: Did nothing much. Watched some Spooks S1.
Tuesday: Actually managed to go to two lectures and a class. Finished watching Spooks S1. Decided to go home for a few days.
Wednesday: Got up horribly early, went to Herne Bay for a dentists appointment which hurt horribly. Came back just as my iAudio M3 was delivered. Was all happy and excited, and put loads of music on it. Packed a bag to go home, went up to Campus for the Student Staff Liason Committee. Then got a bus to the train station, and went home to Hampshire. Played lots of Flashpoint and AvP2 on the train \o/
Thursday: Mooched around all day at home, went swimming with family, which was nice. Started watching Spooks S2. Read Equal Rites.
Friday: Went into Southampton with Mum, Sarah and Jonathan. Hasn't changed much. Came home, watched some Spooks again, read Mort, watched French & Saunders and Have I Got News For You.
Today: Nothing much so far.






La la la.

Uber Update time

The one thing the really scares me at the moment is how quickly the weeks are going. My life just seems to be dribbling through my fingers, and I'm feeling too apathetic at the moment to stop it.

Seeing as I haven't updated for almost 2 weeks, I'll give a brief rundown of what I've been upto:
Last Thursday, I finally got my laptop through! Installed XP Pro on it. It's fantastically great, and I'm very pleased with it.
Can't really remember what I did over the weekend, so can't have been anything much.
Last week was spent doing nothing. Those (few) lecture that I did attend, I spent playing games on my laptop. I still find the work easy, and I don't feel like I'm really missing out on much. Hence the apathy.

This weekend I spent locked away in my room; Didn't get up til late on Saturday, and I spent the afternoon reading "The Colour of Magic" (I went and bought a pile of Discworld books).
Sunday, I went out and bought some new trainers, some ink for my printer, and then saw the Series 1 & 2 DVD boxsets of Spooks. And bought them. Spent the evening watching hthe first 4 episodes of Series 1.

Woke up at 9am this morning, rolled out of bed, and was ready 10 minutes later. John, however, didn't get up until 0940, and so we didn't get up to campus until about 1015. Got to the library... and then just decided to go back home. So we did.

I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going. I don't know if I'm going to do the Year in Industry or not. I don't know what's happening in the summer, nor the summer after.
I hate feeling like this, because usually I know _exactly_ what I'm doing and what my plans are. And if and when they change, it's usually no big deal to me. I don't know why I'm suddenly feeling adrift.

I feel like I'm just drifting, aimlessly, through life. Uni work is easy, and nothing more than a distraction. I should set myself some kind of project to do, but I can't find the motivation. I know that anything I start won't be finished, so I can't be bothered to start.

I have a feeling that this might be related to the fact that I haven't really eaten for the last few days. I only ate a sandwich on Friday, and all I ate over the weekend was a plate of pasta and some tuna. I have nothing in the fridge, and about 3 things in the freezer. I should go shopping, but just can't be bothered.
I'm thinking that it's a vicious circle: I don't eat, which makes me tired, resulting in lazyness, which shows itself in not being bothered about stuff; Apathy. So can't be bothered to eat/buy food, which gives me even less energy, so I do even less

I can't quite believe how quickly this week went....

What I did on Weds and Thurs last week ammount to nothing, except for playing Revelation all day. It's an awesome, awesome game, and as a result, played waaay too much on Thursday, resulting in me oversleeping on Friday, and missing my first two lectures.


The rest of friday zipped by, and I went back to Kim's for the evening, the first time I've spent any proper time with her in about a week. Was good :)


Saturday. Hmmm, what did I do on Saturday. Nothing much; Popped through town, didn't buy anything, went home, played more Revelation (instead of doing the things I had to do)


Sunday, I was gonna go to Dave's 16 player doubledash thingy, but had to stay in and sort out my CV and do some other stuffs (Survivor scenarios for wotmania, etc). It took a while, but I managed to get virtually everything sorted.


Monday and Tuesday were full of lectures, and horrendously boring ones at that. Alex and I watched "The Faculty" through two lectures on Tuesday though, which was quite funny.
I think I'm gonna like Occam and Z. They look interesting.


Today, I have been to the dentist, and gotten another two teeth filled. I am positive that dentists get taught how to scare people though... he always pops up with a syringe whenever I'm least expecting it.


Yesterday evening was a bit stressful, got in a huuuuuuge arguement on wotmania about censorship. Drained me quite a bit.


Oh, and laptopshop.co.uk messed me around loads with the laptop, so I re-ordered with ebuyer (they were back in stock), and 2 hours later, the order had been despatched. Should arrive tomorrow. Finally.



I have also decided that I feel ill, at least physically. But I refuse to let that affect my mental state, so I'm still up for doing stuffs :)

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Friday: was tired all day. Figured out some kinda of java thing in the end. Almost died of stifling laughter in my Algorithms lecture as the boring monotony was broken by a flying/falling pen.

Saturday: Went into town with Kim, looked at some stuffs, bought two Happy Tree Friends DVD's and Spirited Away (an awesome Anime film). Played lots of Wario Ware in the evening.

Sunday: Can't remember, so it can't have been much...

Monday: Lectures. Eugh. Thankfully, there were only two of them, and they were ok. Went with Dave and Alex for a chat with David Barnes about stuffs. Outlook is hopeful :)
Went swimming with looooadsa folkses at 3, before coming home and doing nothing.

Tuesday: 5 hours of lectures and stuffs... learnt some vim in my occam class though, so it can't all be bad. Shouldn't have gone to Networks last thing, was really boring. Went through town quickly, and sent off for a replacement provisional license. Looked at some books too. Bought a pair of trousers.
Came home, and sorted out a calendar and to do list on my palmtop.

Today: Shouted at Central Point, and they're gonna try and sort somthing out. Shouted at Student Loan Company, and found out the reason I haven't been given any money is because I forgot to tell them how much I wanted. I am sure I ticked the "maximum ammount" box, but apparantly not. They'll send that to me for tomorrow morning, and I just got to tick the box and return it.
Went in to to town to pay an electricity bill, and saw Courts (opposite Blockbuster) aflame. Lots of smoke all over the place, lots of police getting everyone out of the way, etc. Whole crossroads was blocked.
Went and bought Myst IV : Revelation, and I shall now spend the evening playing that instead of doing UML modelling and sorting out my CV